Gains, PLEASE!

Toni
Jul 31, 2017
3 min read

OK, I get it! Some of us are naturally thin and that is genetics. But, being that I was once a size 3, I can say that without a question of doubt that I wasn't happy with my size. My cousins or peers that were thick would buy and try on clothes and honestly the outfit would fit their figure and frame their bodies better than mine. I would low key be slight resentful that I didn't have bigger hips, ass or bigger boobs.

I would syke myself out by saying that I was healthier than they were.... or brag about my thigh gap. But secretly, I wished to gain weight. When we went out everyone else would get called "fine" and I would get called "cute". Little did they know but, that shit would piss me off. I would see the looks that they would receive when we would walk by guys and I wanted that. I was tired of being the cute, smart chick that guys wanted as a buddy. I wanted them to find me sexy and curvy. But, what helped me out back then was the fact that fashion models were my size and I would use that whenever a female would say that I needed to gain some weight.....cause bitch, I was trying. I would make it a point to eat everything that my friends were eating and I would eat every time they would eat. Because I figured if we ate the same things that I would have no choice but to gain weight (obviously before I learned about metabolisms and body types).

As an adult married women with 7 kids(giving birth to 5) I finally got my wish. But my body came with more than a freaking wish. It came with age & childbirth. Now a days, you can purchase the body that you want and even make payments for the procedure. However, my oldest daughter went through the same exact emotions because of her thin frame and I gave her this piece of advice. "Never compare yourself to other women, you are perfect just the way you are. Those girls that are fine and thick as teenagers generally become fat, out of shape women. Continue to eat healthy and exercise because that weight will come and it won't have mercy. In time you'll get fine. And when you do it will be on time."

Being 40 things are a little more different because being healthy for myself and my kids, grand kids, great grands and great great grands is apparently more important to me than my size. Look my weight finally came in my mid 30's and that was perfect timing now the key is staying fit and healthy, mentally and physically. Currently, I am 5'5 and 145 lbs. I clearly do not want to lose weight but I do work out to tone and define my body and shape. We are not getting any younger and gravity is a bitch without mercy. So, we have to take control of our own bodies. It is our own prize possession that God gave us only one. We must maintain our temple and it requires upkeep. If you have problem areas that you wish to target, set a goal and look up exercises on YouTube which target those areas. Join a local gym( I did and if you follow me on Snapchat you can see my workouts: 👻glambrats) stay committed and it is a great ideal to plan to workout( jog, walk, jump rope etc.)just put it on your to do list for the day.

Do not put to much pressure on yourself about weight. Just make sure that you are healthy first! That is what really matters. Because you can be unhealthy and thin while someone else is healthy and overweight. And secondly, you determine how you want to look, if you want to lose, gain or tone. Then, do what it takes to achieve the body that you want.

As for me, child.... I like thick. I like how I feel, the way my clothes fit, the way I look in the mirror, the way my husband looks at me naked and the comments on social media are addictive too.

I know now that cardio makes me lose weight(that's not what I want) but lifting weights focuses on my stubborn areas and believe me this queen can lift. That is all I focus on at this point. It most definitely is not a joke to me. I don't want but, I need my body healthy and fit. The dogs can have the bones! Gains, please!